masque12: (angel puppet)
2012-11-06 05:49 am

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I drink too much, I smoke too much, I don't take nearly as much care of my health as I should. I tend to make a fool of myself on occasion, (especially when I've indulged too much), and I'm awkward as fuck.

But I try to do the best I can, and fumbling through life though I am, I still give a shit about the world. What I do may be far from the ideal way to achieve whatever my current goals are, but I try to do the best I can. I am therefore broadly content with myself.

Off I go to vote (once they open in a few hours).
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2012-01-20 09:29 pm

Cat's away at school, it's just me and the cats.

Back in Houston, after the rough drive to Ithaca. The DC stopover was cool, we just needed more time. Flying solo for the first time, pretty much ever, When I moved out of my parents' house I had a roommate, and I went from that to married. Will have to get used to that, but the more pressing need is to get all my own shit packed for the move into the one bedroom apartment next month. Cat does seem to be adjusting up there, but it's only been a few days. I'll see how this goes.
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2011-11-18 06:14 pm


You can learn a lot about someone by the music they listen to. Hit shuffle on your iPod or mp3 player and write down the first 20 songs. No cheating or skipping songs that are shameful. That is the fun!

01. Stephen Batchelor - Turning the Wheel of Dhamma
02. Front 242 - Kampfbereit
03. NOFX - USA-holes
04. Stephen Batchelor - The Tyrant and the Monk
05. Stephen Batchelor- Self and Society
06. Cypress Hill - Hand on the Glock
07. Cypress Hill - Highlife
08. Front 242 - Happiness
09. Stephen Batchelor - God and Buddha nature
10. Kim Stanley Robinson - Blue Mars, track 23
11. NOFX - One Million Coasters
12. Matt Ridley - Genome audiobook - Intelligence
13. Cypress Hill - Money
14. Richard Dawkins - The Greatest Show on Earth - Chapter 12, Arms Races and Evolution
15. The Birthday Massacre - Under the Stairs
16. Front 242 - Body to Body
17. Front Line Assembly - Aussgang zum Himmel
18. Front Line Assembly - The Blade (Worldwide Mix)
19. Weird Al Yankovic - Money For Nothing (Beverly Hillbillies)
20. Tool - The Grudge
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2011-10-16 03:03 pm

The Memetics of Religion: Fundamentalism as a Parasitic Adaptation

By no means is it meant to be authoritative, but I think it's a decent working hypothesis for me to base future work off of, especially as I seek to go back to school.
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2011-09-27 04:18 pm

Conversations I have

I'm masque1223. I've changed the name of the other person so as to not incriminate them. The link is to an article where a boy masturbated himself to death.

(03:49:23 PM) (name withheld):
(03:51:06 PM) masque1223: yeah, you've told me about it before, with a different link. i think it was you, anyway
(03:51:25 PM) (name withheld): yep
(03:52:29 PM) (name withheld): at my peak, I never even came close to that.
(03:53:35 PM) masque1223: well, the standard has been set.
(03:54:25 PM) (name withheld): fatally so
(03:55:45 PM) masque1223: well, the runner of the first marathon died, too. now thousands of people do so every year without major consequences. he just had an inadequate training regimen
(03:56:03 PM) (name withheld): LOL
(03:57:21 PM) masque1223: if the olympics can deal with synchronized swimming and figure skating, i see no reason why it can't include events to show off sexual prowess, in multiple categories
(03:58:44 PM) masque1223: it might even engender healthier attitudes towards sex and tolerance of those with some of the more creative predilections
(03:59:25 PM) masque1223: better than this kid dying in vain. let's make him a pioneer
(03:59:32 PM) (name withheld): and thanks to you, I just conceived of synchronized wanking as an Olympic sport.
(04:00:14 PM) masque1223: has more of a useful purpose than synchronized swimming, that's for damn sure
(04:00:21 PM) (name withheld): heh
(04:01:11 PM) (name withheld): that's it, the Pornlympics.
(04:02:13 PM) masque1223: nah, fuck that. besides, they already exist. no ghettos for sexual events. put them in the real olympics, make people acknowledge that it's just as athletic, and should be respected
(04:02:58 PM) (name withheld): The only difference is, winners finish last.
(04:04:47 PM) masque1223: in some events, sure. but i can see others where time isn't the only consideration. distance ejaculation, men and women's events. orgasm intensity, measured with brain scans. there's a whole swath of areas to excel at
(04:05:15 PM) (name withheld): Heh. "And he stuck the landing!"
(04:05:23 PM) masque1223: yep
(04:05:35 PM) masque1223: relay races could be fun
(04:06:06 PM) masque1223: i mean fuck, it's more traditional. the olympic games originally had competitors in the nude
(04:06:56 PM) (name withheld): too true
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2011-08-30 04:13 pm

Peter Singer is an asshole

< sarcasm >Seriously, fuck that guy. Who is he to make me question my deeply held ethical convictions!? What a prick!< /sarcasm >

I am becoming more and more sympathetic to the ethical arguments for vegetarianism, now that I've actually been exposed to them properly. I don't know that I'll be able to pull off a full transition, but I'd already been considering an attempt at adopting a more Mediterranean diet for health reasons, so I'll start with that and see how it goes. How to adjust what I shop for seems like it's going to be one of the biggest problems.
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2011-08-24 09:29 am

Another book sale

I am selling off my occult library. I'm still in the process of listing them, but this link should work even before I'm done listing them:
masque12: (Default)
2011-08-18 04:31 am

(no subject)

I hate it when being honest to a friend may kill a friendship.
masque12: (angel puppet)
2011-08-14 07:50 am

Intro to my new blog

This isn't the first actual post on my new blog, but it's the first one that really matters. More to come as I get it typed up.
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2011-07-23 11:37 am

Complete Golden Dawn System of Magic for sale?

I have the 2003 Limited Edition Complete Golden Dawn System of Magic book (not Deluxe, just limited), the first with an index. It is autographed by Christopher Hyatt and numbered, although I'm at work and can't recall the number offhand. I no longer need it, and am considering selling it. Any offers?
masque12: (angel puppet)
2011-06-09 08:08 pm

Keith's Sonic Screwdriver, a drink I slapped together recently.

1 Cocktail glass, preferably the kind with a round base and then a column that tapers out. (My glasses come from the Houston Aquarium restaurant and BAR, if anyone actually cares. We have 8 of them, largely due to poor judgment.)

Fill round part with ice.

Fill round part with Mountain Dew (roughly 1/4 a can).

Add a shot of Captain Morgan Black Cask (100 proof).

Add a splash of Rose's blue raspberry mixer, until the rum and dew and the Rose's makes a nice blue-green color.

Add a shot of vodka (I use Monopolowa potato vodka, kept in the freezer).

Add a splash of Maraschino cherry juice, basically however much you feel like.

(Optional: add a splash of pineapple juice, however much you like. Optional because I didn't have pineapple juice when I made the originals, but now I use it, and it is pretty damn awesome.)

Top off with more Mountain Dew. (maybe another 1/4 of a can?)

Throw in as many maraschino cherries as you feel like (5-7 for me, but I really like them.)

Garnish with a slice of orange and pineapple, if you can be arsed to do so, and have cocktail swords or umbrellas on hand.


For those wondering, it's called Keith's Sonic Screwdriver because I invented it while watching last week's episode of Doctor Who.
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2011-05-29 06:47 am

Hermetic update.

Re-reading Hermetic Magic, I got to the part where Dr. Flowers explains his progression of vowels up the tree, leading to the Crown (Stephanos, heh), and that was frustrating me because I don't like the shape of his tree, and I don't like the path his vowels take, either. Either late last night or early this morning I figured out a way to use my preferred paths and allow the vowel path to lead to the Crown. Basically, I have a Middle Pillar path of A, E, and H, then starting from Eros I and O make a left hand path via Sophia, and Y and Ω make a right hand path via Nous. This way, I have 3 vowel paths, symmetry, and Gnosis is centered nicely between the trident ascendents.
I also like how the alternate O sounds are the ones that veer off, along with the long vowels I (ee) and Y (uu). I will simply assign the consonants in order in the blank paths, as I work my way up.

Perhaps it's not as elegant, mathematically, as Dr. Flowers' version but aesthetically, it suits me much better.

(Note: Dr. Flowers' version is slightly different from the one I posted the other day, he switches Sophia and Nous, renames Agathosyne to Eros, Arche to Stephanos, and Themelion to Arche Aionas. The description above refers to that version, for now. Eventually, I'll have a really nice version of my final form drawn up, at which point I will post a picture.)

Otherwise, I continue to do additional research, have been reading some of the Enneads and Corpus Hermeticum online at , those will have to do until I can get my hands on more authoritative translations, and later, versions in the original Greek.
masque12: (YOG!  SOTHOTH!)
2011-05-24 03:28 am

Greek Qabalah and my current work

I have been getting back to the basics of magical practice, refreshing my memory and my skills, and reconsidering various things. I started out very basic, going back to doing the LBRP every day when I woke up and before I went to bed, but it bothered me. I switched to the Gnostic Pentagram Rite from Peter Carroll, but it's too abstract. While I know that the Qabalistic stuff is pretty syncretic, I really don't like using all the Hebrew godnames, and frankly, I've never been a fan of the language, either.

The main thing, of course, is that I don't believe in YHVH, and if I did, I'd hate him. I think the religions based on that entity are fairly toxic in general, and while all 3 do have useful, mystical traditions associated with them, it's trivial to show evidence that those mystical traditions are pagan in nature, generally going back to philosophical explorations that are mostly Greek. They're not all Greek, of course, there's Egyptian, Roman, a whole bunch of stuff from the various different peoples that have lived between the Tigris and Euphrates, but they do seem to all have a non-monotheistic origin, and the majority of classical (as in pre-medieval) materials that have survived and influenced modern magical practice are Greek, and therefore the Greek will be my focus.

I first read Hermetic Magic by Stephen Flowers years ago, before first joining the Temple of Set. I'm re-reading it along with a few other books. I had forgotten about it, but he includes an alternate Tree of Life in there, with 24 paths rather than 22, so that they correspond to the Greek alphabet. I don't know if he created it, or just found it. It's kinda thrown in the book without much comment, but it's stuck in my head.

I also found it here:
I haven't read the whole series yet, and it gets into a lot of the Christian stuff I'd like to avoid, but I still will finish reading it at some point.

I like that image, but I think for my own uses I'd restore 3-6 and 2-6, removing 8-10 and 7-10 to compensate. That gives me some nice nested hexagrams (unicursal and traditional) and pentagrams (averse and upright) in the top section there. I haven't worked out all the meanings of doing so yet, but I'm working on it.

So anyway, in addition to renewing my active work, I'm also apparently engaged in some Greek reconstructive work. So far, LBRP wise, I have replaced the Qabalistic Cross in my own practice with Sam Webster's Quantum Cross, which can be found here:
I like his whole rite, but at this point I don't feel like replacing all the Yahwist baggage with Thelemic baggage, even if I do consider myself at least mostly sympathetic with Thelemic goals. I'm just trying to get back to the pagan roots right now, so I'm just stealing the first part. Right now, for my daily praxis I'm doing that in combination with the pentagrams from Carroll's GPR, vibrating IEAOU while drawing them, and that's ok for now, but my goal is a full reconstruction of the LBRP, eventually.

The rest of this is a list of resources I've found while researching all this. By necessity of brokeness, all my research has been online so far, although I'm also re-reading Flowers' Hermetic Magic, I'm getting around to reading Garth Fowden's The Egyptian Hermes, and I plan on purchasing Keiren Barry's The Greek Qabalah when the books I have on eBay sell. The rest of this is just a big linkdump, mainly for my own reference, but open for comments for anyone else interested.
Beginning of Greek Qabalah series from the Rosicrucian Archive:
The Ancient Greek Esoteric Doctrine of The Elements:
Lots of Wikilinks:
Sepher Yetzirah:
Marcosian Gnostics:
Papyrae Graecae Magicae:
Corpus Hermeticum:

And then some others I found:
Free Greek lessons online:
A work in progress, apparently, but looks like it will become useful soon:
Always fun, has tons of material, including the PGM, The Corpus Hermeticum, The Enneads, and even versions of that Sam Webster stuff I posted:

That should be plenty for now.