Kitties

[masque12]

I've been looking at kittens available on Craigslist, just for the hell of it. I'm in no way ready to replace the Beast yet (he is irreplaceable), but there's a hell of a lot of really cute kittens on there. I want them all. If you are looking for a pet, however, I recommend checking craigslist out, and giving some of them a home. I think the Beast would appreciate it.

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[00goddess.livejournal.com]

And I'm sorry if I came across as insensitive- I wouldn't have mentioned it otherwise.

[masque12.livejournal.com]

No, no, I didn't take any offense whatsoever. I know some people that get a new cat right away after one dies, and it makes them feel better. If the Beast had been older, and died of natural causes, say, peacefully in his sleep, I might feel that way, myself. The biggest hurdle for me is that I had to take him to be euthanized, and even though I know intellectually that he was really sick, and that it was the more merciful thing to do, I have this idea that I killed him that I need to get past, as wrong headed and illogical as I know it is. Hence why I need some time. I appreciate the suggestion. Right now I'm still at the stage where I close the door really quick when I get home, so that he doesn't get out, or I expect to feel his weight up against me, snuggling in the bed with me. First I need to really internalize that he's gone, and then I need to conquer my guilt. Only then will I be ready for another one. I do know that when I get another one, it won't be a black cat, much as I love them, because that feels kind of like a betrayal of his memory. Hence why I'm thinking orange or black/grey tabby.